We All Need Mirrors to Remind Ourselves Who We Are

anarchy00 @ 2008-06-12T15:19:00

2008-06-12T19:23:26Z

i havent updated in about 3 months ahh. but a lot has happened in that time. matt and i did end up breaking up on st patricks day (ha fun right). but we couldnt stay apart long... we just got back together at the end of may. im really happy about the decision everythings been going pretty perfect since it happened. knock on wood. i finished my freshman year!!! when the HS kids from EHS graduated in may it was so weird... i can't believe that was us a year ago and we're already done with our first year of college. it went by so quick. i did really well; i got a 3.92 last semester. hoefully i can keep thatttt up. on saturday i leave for the GA mountains for a week. should be fun but i will mis home. all ive been doing is going to the beach and getting drunk there...but thats what summer in pv consists of. i miss emily soo soooooo much but next year we will be living together and it will be amazing. yes yes. ok thats all for now

:)

anarchy00 @ 2007-08-17T01:31:00

2007-08-17T05:35:20Z

why is everything i always wanted happening now when i am days away from leaving? i wouldn't trade this for the world..but i know it's going to cause me worlds of pain. i love him so much...

that's what you get when you let your heart win

thats what you get when you let your heart win

2007-07-31T04:11:15Z

summer is finally almost over. it's definitely been a trip. so many more ups and downs than i could have imagined. i leave for seattle/canada in a week, then i'm home for 5 days, then i'm off to tallahassee. it's crazy to think that a month from now i'll be living on my own and away from all these people that have shaped the events of my life thus far. i can start feeling the urgence of summer. although some people are still trying to hold on. i've been deeply confused; its been a really hard situation for me. i waited two years to hear the words i finally hear today and i don't even want them. not to mention i can't commit to a thing. i don't want to hurt anyone...but i especially don't want to hurt myself. i'm just trying to make sense of all the things i've been through this summer. i tend to put myself in really shitty relationships, maybe on purpose. and even knowing that person isn't right for me..but i ignore all the terrible things they do and linger on the praiseworthy actions. but its time for a change. i'm just ready to start over i guess. need to let go...

i never meant to brag
but i got him where i wanted him now

anarchy00 @ 2007-07-05T00:10:00

2007-07-05T04:10:34Z

the worst 4th of july ever

anarchy00 @ 2007-05-24T02:43:00

2007-05-24T06:44:41Z

whyyyyy do i do this everytime

god
im drunk

as we go on, we remember...

2007-05-10T01:02:01Z

matty b
you are such a huge part of my life. whether it's needing someone to sushi with on a school night, or someone to cry to when something goes wrong, you're there. no one can cheer me up or make me laugh like you do. you're spontaneous, caring, and supporting in every way i could ask for. we have such a unique relationship i know i will never achieve with anyone else. skimboarding, navigator rides down a1a, sushi sushi sushi, shopping at lemon twist, harassing mikey, making smoothies, jumping into your sub zero degree pool, mean girls, drugs and easy mac.

you and i are gonna live for forever

sometimes you can't make it on your own

emilie
you are my entertainment. drinking in my parking lot or dancing to T.I., nothing tops the crazy shit we've done. you are just like me, and that's why i love you! haha. you have good taste in alcohol and fashion. you are my number one drinking buddy. tu as mon coeur, et je sais que tu seras avec moi pendant notres ans a l'university. les chassures de travail....cinq minutes! i'm so glad we have become as close as we have in the past two years. i look forward to becoming even closer with you in college. we're gonna tear shit up haha. one piece of advice: DON'T EAT THE FISH!

we admit to the truth; we are the best at what we do
wouldn't stop if i could
oh, it hurts to be tihs good

megan
megan megan megan...words can't even describe how much you've done for me these past couple of years. sans doubt (haha), you've always stuck by my side, even if you know i'm wrong. i don't think i ever would have survived what i've been through if it wasn't for you. state farm, emotional rollercoasters, work drama, crazy amounts of stress, ms robbins..etc.. you are such a selfless, talented, compassionate person. i can't go one day without you, i don't know how i'll sort my way through college, many phonecalls will be made. all the things we've done..tama's! and etto, our scary movie streak, take out thai food, smoking out of apples over christmas break, planning millions of trips we'll never go on haha...i love you shmegal

and if the walls came crumbling down
fell so hard to make us lose our faith
someone you'd figure it out..
still make lemonade taste like a summer day

dustin
it sure has been a journey. it's almost two years that we've known eachother now. and for those two years we've never gone more than five days without talking. there have always been obstacles, but the reward is always worth it. you may not always know what to say, but i'll always know how much you care about me. watching the sopranos, smoking ourselves silly, fine dining always, guanna state park trips, BU CRU, taco bell, grapefruit parties, talking every night. despite everything, i can't deny that you've made me extremely happy. i wouldn't this for the world.

there's a piece of you in every single second of every single day

i break the law once every week to feel you're touch
but i'd break your name before i'd say i really love you, love you

...and it really makes me wonder

2007-05-06T16:48:32Z

i'm so over this bullllshit. so i'm stepping away from it, maybe it's time you don't step away with me. 'cause it obviously doesn't work. can't wait til i can't focus on AP exams now. FUCK this. i don't even believe what you say anymore.
saw captain kid last night, they were amazing. i'm so glad i got there. i hope everything works out for them in NY, they deserve it...
if you haven't heard them... www.myspace.com/captainkidrocks

give me something to believe in
'cause i don't believe in you anymore
and you told me how you're feeling
but i don't believe it's true anymore
it really makes me wonder
if i ever gave a fuck about you

the end isn't near..it's here

2007-05-04T00:11:43Z

tomorrow is my last actual day of classes...next week is going to be a joke, then i have one exam, then graduation. it's so strange that we've finally got here. it seems like just yesterday i was posting about how sad it was that the seniors last year were graduating. the time went by all too fast. and these next two weeks are going to feel like no time at all; ap exams, graduation partys, bacceloriate, commencement, and...our last summer together. i got my graduation dress today and it FINALLY set in that we're done with highschool, forever. i don't know if i'm exactly ready to leave. for many of the people i've grown up with, this will be my last month with them. i think when the time comes, i'll be able to part with my friends, my parents, my beautiful town, my job, and my comfort.

even as i left florida
far enough, far enough
wasn't far enough...

during the last ten minutes of my eighteenth birthday

2007-04-14T04:08:10Z

what do i think?
i think i am the luckiest girl in the world.
i can get through anything with the people in my life, always.
despite the pathetic people trying to bring me down on my birthday, today was perfect
ruth's chris with the five people who matter the most to me
presents!
and hanging out with dustin after
i couldn't have asked for anything else

i'm already feeling older, more mature
new experiences

NuTh0ught: i ruv
NuTh0ught: even when you piss me off i still love you

used to be the reason you breathe now it's choking you up
when the act becomes the art of growing up

we'll shake up this town and shoot down the stars for our enjoyement

2007-03-27T20:43:26Z

it's been so long since i've updated. i guess a lots been going on. i've been doing pretty poorly in school, so i know it's not that...haha. i've been working a lot. i went to New Orleans over spring break to help the BCM program from UNF deconstruct houses with the Green Project. an experience for sure. we stayed in the 9th ward it was pretty ghetto. we're finally starting to get prom plans together...i hope everything works out the way we want it to hah...and NO DRAMA. ((yeah right)). things have been a little tougher lately, so i've been trying to work on my relationships with the people who matter most to me. i decided to go to FSU next year because i didn't feel like researching other colleges/spending a lot of money/going far from home. we'll see how it works out. i'm having a hard time getting serious about college.

bourbon street

leah and i

the group in some bar

green project

sketchy

sleeping quarters

ghetto

the home halfway deconstructed

austin and i

g-l-a-m-o-r-o-u-s

pat & i

love them

whoops, i spilled my drink

okay

scorlando/legalos & i

yeah, im a badass

besties

'cause baby girl's a queen...
but a queen's just a pawn with a bunch of fancy moves

we close our eyes and another year has come and gone

2007-01-02T22:27:12Z

January

-hanging out with dustin
-get caught with marijuana and rum, get grounded
-january 14th rituals with jessica

February
-blueground undergrass show with dad

-nights at village inn

-partying at Adam's

March
-Sonic trips
-college visits

-spring break

April
-Jessica quit SoBu

-i am a counselor on the 8th grade trip
-dance parties with emilie
-i turn 17

-lots of weekends with adam, dustin, and kenny

-good friday! haha

May
-start at pom’s san marco
-junior year ends

-summer day parties

-c/o 2006 graduates

-grillouts and crunk sessions at will’s

June

-SoBu closes
-I get my first speeding ticket
-begin working at restaurant medure

-italy!

July

-seaside parking lot parties

-hanging out with monica
-late drunken taco bell runs with Andrew and megan

August

-senior year starts
-visit katy in Gainesville
-spend a lot of time with dustin
-people begin to leave for college

-eat at etto way too much

September

-lots of megan and emilie
-talahassee trip with Ashley

-fine dining with dus

October
-two more speeding tickets
-marie antionette haha
-get accepted to FSU

November
-marshall gets married
-will phelan is born
-I go into debt
-seth?

December
-megan gets accepted to NYU

-medure Christmas party

-winter break and lots of drinking
-new years eve at Medure

anarchy00 @ 2006-10-31T22:25:00

2006-11-01T03:25:22Z

i was accepted to FSU!

anarchy00 @ 2006-08-30T21:13:00

2006-08-31T01:13:23Z

i love my life. i wish i could keep it this way forever

anarchy00 @ 2006-08-02T22:54:00

2006-08-03T02:55:13Z

the food service industry is extremely fucked up. i do not recommend it.

anarchy00 @ 2006-07-11T16:14:00

2006-07-11T20:14:51Z

JAKS

florence

idk

check that view, bitches

ITALY

2006-06-23T12:02:31Z

two weeks
miss me
pictures when i return

anarchy00 @ 2006-06-22T10:00:00

2006-06-22T13:58:18Z

fuck fuck fuck i just fucked up big time

i think i just lost him

ever since i can remember...

2006-06-19T04:38:33Z

i crave attention

im gonna miss him

mmm hi 8th grade MTR

hopped up on the pill

found this today...9th grade...wow

got pulled over today. but got that ticket lowered from 208 to 83. don't go 21 over in atlantic beach...never a good idea hahah.

tonight was especially fun

!!!!!!!!!!

2006-06-03T00:36:54Z

POM'S PONTE VEDRA IS NO MORE....TOMORROW WE CLOSE

my life is ending as i know it

anarchy00 @ 2006-05-14T10:14:00

2006-05-14T14:16:25Z

chris' graduation party last night was amazing. live music by inspection 12, and a luxury car lined street getting completely boxed out. it was in typical fashion haha. i only expected to stay for a half an hour, but i'm really glad i went, it was an awesome time.

overall i'm extremely happy right now. so don't fuck this up for me.

so which was better?

shocker

inspection 12

people say she looks like me...i don't see it?

i love him

c-stowe

I12

he was sober

awks

namedropping

chris aw

me, uhh robert?, and holly

john, courtney, andrew

haha me and john

kent, me, robert, holly

so cute

shocker

blood

camo

hiding haha

2006!

2006-01-01T19:06:33Z

JANUARY

-dated mike

FEBRUARY

-spent a lot of time with nadia
-jaxxxix (the superbowl comes to jacksonville)
-broke up with mike
-moved to the beach

MARCH
-i made a myspace! haha

-have an awesome spring break: hanging out with friends, and west palm beach with nadia
-do pole vaulting on the track team

APRIL

-i turn 16 and have the best birthday thanks to [old] friends
-charlie mottier? hahah

-tiger army concert with rachel

MAY

-i start working at Al's Pizza Ponte Vedra

-lizzie's sixteenth birthday party

-kentucky derby party

-summer begins (life at the beach is amazing)

-fair with nadia haha

JUNE
-i get my license!!!

-orlando with kerry and zach

-cruise in the bahamas

-become good friends with lizzie

JULY
-throw kerry a surprise birthday party, crash my car into a tree

-nadia has a bonfire for the 4th

-celebrate at kerrys beach house with her and zach

-spent most of the summer with kerry and zach

AUGUST

-oar concert
-quit my job at Al's
-junior year starts, and it sucks..drama

SEPTEMBER

-peace rally in washington with my dad instead of homecoming

-start carpooling with andrew

OCTOBER
-got a job at SoBu to make money and distract me
-work pretty much takes over my life
-spent my halloween working

NOVEMBER
-thanksgiving break a lot with andrew
-ZoSo plays at freebird
-nothing exciting happened this month haha

DECEMBER
-SoBu becomes Pom's Ponte Vedra
-christmas break...pretty much worked the whole time

-work party at Medure's...amazing
-new years spent working, and watching the ball drop at jessica's house

good friends we've had
and good friends we've lost
along the way
but in this bright future
you can forget your past cause it won't last
so dry your tears i say

welly welly welly well

2005-12-03T15:30:21Z

i have a very unhealthy obsession with clockwork orange

anarchy00 @ 2005-09-07T21:20:00

2005-09-08T01:23:46Z

i love this picture

oh, this IS an old camera... haha

atlantis?

gotta love it

rawr (hil hahah)

we go togetherrrr like...

baby caroline haha

aw, i wasnt even here for this picture haha

work it cover girl

~~$10 to the first person to tell me where this picture is taken!~~
raychel i owe you $10

reason #358 why my sister is more awesome than you

2005-08-25T22:32:17Z

i miss her. i want to go to gainseville soon. she is the only person who understands

purify the colors, purify my mind

2005-08-23T23:46:39Z

check that collar bone!

bffl

i got a new car!!

do not attempt...
(why do i look fat?)

SIN CITY!

cruising through the beautiful PV, singing kelly clarkson hahahaha

say what you want
say what you mean
question yourself
are you really what you seem?
long while since i've got myself across
but maybe there's a reason for that
even if i caught you, i'd through you back
-dispatch-